"Father, I don't like weightlifting. I don't want to weight-lift anymore..."
Uff - not at all surprised she came to this decision. Of all the things that have taken a downward-turn in her life, the most recent of those events have all been in some way connected to weight-lifting, and have caused her the most emotional grief. She didn't just decide overnight that she wants to quit, rather her conflicted feelings regarding her outlook on weight-lifting and what it means to her have been gnawing at her for some time now. And those feelings became all the more prominent when she experienced her first real crush, which (perhaps for the first time in her life) made her feel like a woman - by Bok's ju's definition. But that very crush also took her out of the world of weightlifting, as she began to associate herself more with the fabricated life she created for herself in which weight-lifting held no value. Her lack of self esteem and increasing self-awareness is therefore a result of her wanting to find her place in society as a woman, rather than a weightlifter, and until she figures out for herself that there's no separating the two, she will not find it it within herself to love both herself and the world of weight-lifting.